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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 04:22

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

She found it foreign!.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

So, i spoilt her more .

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Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

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But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I couldn’t, believe it.

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I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

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I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

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Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

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I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Im still living with it.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

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Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I write beautiful poetry .

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Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I have no regrets .

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She was in good health!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Where did Noah build the Ark? Was it in a desert or near water?

I could never make a relationship work though!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

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Who then, do I blame.?

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

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She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

But it wasn’t much.

Ive learnt so much.

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He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

What did i know ?

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

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But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

One cannot live in the past .

I waited trembling.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

So whats the point in blame.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Would this be the day?

I don,t even have a pension.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

But ive been too sick for many years..

They are buried together, in the same grave..

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I was seconnd youngest,

He knew the spot.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

And i lived it daily.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

He was dying to do it , i knew.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

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We all went to grammer schools

She loved him until the end.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I said to her

She wouldn,t have been !

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

He resisted the act ,that day.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Especially a lifetime of it.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

But, we were locked up after school.

(And it was in our own minds.)

It was going to be , some day.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Was to survive, this bastard.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

My life is so biszare .

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I never cut or harmed myself..

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

We were not on the streets..

She married twice! .

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I was scared of men, in general

When she asked me how she looked .

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I will be 64.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Why did i forgive my father ?

All the time i was locked up.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I was 9 years of age.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

My family never makes their pension either.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I was very sick at this time too.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Comes on , in middle age.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Put me off passion for life!!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

This is soul school!.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I think the readers, may guess!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!